Part 4
Daniel turned the journal back toward himself. For several seconds, all he could see was Evelyn’s hand resting on a page as she wrote, though it was his own hand lying there.
“Daniel?”
“I’m here.”
Beth waited. He could hear a door close somewhere behind her.
“I can come over.”
He looked through the kitchen window. The barn door was open. From the house, the interior was too dark to see.
“Give me a little while.”
“All right.”
“Thank you for finding it.”
He set the phone beside the journal and remained at the table until his coffee had gone cold.
Timber’s Beacon.
The name must have been on the papers. He’d signed them. The breeder had sent documents, and the farm manager had brought more when he came for the horse. Daniel had kept his eyes on the places that required his name.
He had called the gelding Timber because he watched the woods. Twenty-five years later, standing in the same barn, Daniel had supplied the other half without knowing it belonged there.
He pushed back his chair, picked up the journal, and held it against his palm. Then he laid it open on the table again.
Outside, he walked past the truck without looking at it and entered the barn.
Beacon turned from the covered window.
Daniel stopped halfway down the aisle. The horse’s face was broader with age around the eyes, the muzzle paler than he remembered. There was a small uneven place in the white stocking on the right foreleg. Daniel knew that mark. He’d washed mud from it, wrapped a loose bandage above it once, watched Evelyn trace it with her boot while she talked to someone over the stall door.
He took another step.
Beacon extended his nose.
Daniel let the horse smell his hand, though there was no reason to offer it as an introduction now. The muzzle touched his fingers, moved over his knuckles, and rested there briefly.
He stayed until the horse went back to his hay.
That night, Daniel lay awake without turning on the bedside lamp. He could hear the refrigerator cycling downstairs and a branch brushing the porch roof. He’d meant to cut it back before winter.
When he finally slept, it was close to morning.
He rose at half past five, made coffee, and stood at the kitchen window while the shape of the orchard emerged from the dark. The journal lay open behind him. He left his empty cup beside it and went out.
In the tack room, the old saddle hung beneath a cover on its peg.
Daniel lifted it down. His shoulders registered the weight before his hands settled under it. He set it across his knees on a low stool and brushed away the dust.
He hadn’t used it since the sale. Once, during a roof repair, he’d moved the cover to check for damp, then put everything back. He’d kept the room dry, but the leather had stiffened.
There was conditioner on the bottom shelf. Daniel tested a little beneath the skirt, then worked it in with a cloth, bending each strap carefully as he went. He checked the stitching, the billets, the rigging. The old cinch had hardened beyond what he trusted; he set it aside and fitted the sound spare from the cupboard.
Forty minutes passed before he stood.
Beacon watched from the stall as Daniel carried the saddle out. He put it on the rail, fetched the pad, and opened the door.
“All we’re doing is walking.”
The horse stood while Daniel brushed his back, spread the pad, and lifted the saddle into place. He tightened the cinch in stages, led him a few steps, then checked it again.
The bridle took longer. Daniel’s fingers were clumsy at the buckle, and he muttered at himself before finding the hole.
Beacon waited with the bit quiet in his mouth.
In the yard, mist obscured the lower trunks of the apple trees. Daniel led the horse to the mounting step by the barn. He stood there looking at the path beyond the hayfield, then gathered the reins.
It had been six years since he’d gone into those woods.
He mounted slowly. His lower back objected as he settled, and for a moment he sat too rigidly, searching for a balance he used to find without thinking. Beacon remained still.
Daniel loosened his hands.
“Easy does it,” he said.
The horse walked on.
They crossed the hayfield where frost whitened the stubble. Daniel kept the reins soft and watched the footing. At the upper fence, the path entered the woods through a gap he’d repaired more than once. Beacon angled toward it before Daniel had to ask.
Oak leaves lay damp and flat underfoot. Hickory shells cracked beneath a hoof. The grade was gentle, the pace unhurried, and Daniel let the horse stop once to look through the trees toward the orchard.
He’d expected the ride to feel unfamiliar after so long. Instead, his hands remembered when to give and when to gather, and his body began to move with the old horse’s walk.
A woodpecker worked somewhere below them. Daniel could hear each strike distinctly, then the softer scrape of bark falling.
At the fork, he looked toward the left-hand trail. It climbed to the open shoulder of the hill, where his father had brought him as a boy to watch weather crossing the farms below.
Beacon took the right.
Daniel hadn’t touched the rein.
The path eased down through a shallow hollow. Through the trunks ahead, he began to see open ground. First a patch of yellow grass, then the broad base of an oak, then the flat stone near the middle of the clearing.
Something leaned beside it.
He recognized the chair before he could make out its broken leg.
Evelyn’s canvas camp chair had weathered almost to the color of the stone. One metal joint had rusted through, leaving the seat tilted. Long grass grew through the lower frame.
Daniel had thought it would be gone. Whenever he’d allowed himself to think of the clearing, he’d imagined the chair collapsed or carried off, reduced to pieces that no longer required recognition.
Beacon walked into the open and stopped near the stone. He lowered his head without grazing.
Daniel sat a moment, then dismounted. He laid the reins where they wouldn’t catch and left the horse standing as he’d been trained to stand. At the rock, Daniel brushed aside a few wet leaves and sat down.
Cold came through his jeans.
The chair was within reach. He touched the frayed canvas at one corner, then let his hand drop.
Evelyn had come here during the years after Timber was sold. When she was well enough, they’d walked. Later, Daniel brought the chair up and left it so she could rest without admitting she needed to.
He remembered the day he’d collected the horse-sale check from the office handling the paperwork. He’d brought it home and put it in the drawer beside the stove, the same drawer where her journal had ended up years later.
“It’s handled,” he’d told her.
She was in another round of treatment, sitting in the kitchen with a blanket around her knees. She’d thanked him, too tired to ask much, and he’d been relieved she hadn’t.
There had been bills. There had been real need. He’d repeated those facts whenever he thought about the horse.
On the rock, with Beacon standing a few steps away, Daniel followed the memory past the check and the drawer.
He hadn’t called the bank about extending the loan. He hadn’t spoken to his brother-in-law about the equipment he’d offered to buy. He’d gone first to the barn, seen Timber waiting in the morning light, and decided he couldn’t bear another day of it.
Every good ride was there. Evelyn laughing over a dropped rein. Her boots on the mounting step. Her hand reaching for the horse while she told Daniel about something ordinary she’d planned for the afternoon.
He had wanted the stall empty.
The horse’s sale paid bills. It also removed the sight Daniel had begun to dread each morning.
He bent forward, elbows on his knees, and stared at the damp leaves beside his boots. He’d let the manager lead Timber out. He’d stayed inside when the trailer door closed.
A hoof moved through the grass.
Beacon came beside the rock, slowly enough that Daniel heard each step. He lowered his head and set his muzzle against Daniel’s shoulder.
Daniel raised a hand to the horse’s jaw. Warm breath passed along his collar.
“I’m sorry I turned my back…”
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