Part 3
The wire cutters had barely fitted between the calf’s skin and the barbs.
That was what came back first: the awkward angle of my wrist, the man behind me saying to hurry, the calf too exhausted to fight until the last strand tightened.
I’d been twenty-three, working at the Veylan ranch in the mountain country of northern New Mexico. An April storm had pushed the cows and calves against a damaged stretch of fence. We found him the next morning with his head caught in the wire, three weeks old and trembling so hard his teeth knocked against the pliers.
Another hand held his body while I cut him free. Once the wire dropped, I sat down in the mud with him between my knees. His neck was wet, and the skin behind his left ear had been sliced in a long curve.
I had no towel. I held him against my slicker and whistled while the other man went for the truck.
For three weeks, I cleaned and treated that wound twice a day. His mother developed trouble in her udder, so bottles became part of the job too. The calf soon knew the sound of milk being mixed, but the whistle brought him before he could see the bucket.
He’d leave the far side of a wet pasture and come straight to me, all knees and appetite.
His coat had a dusty gray cast then. There was an official number on his tag, but I called him Ash, and before long everyone else did too.
Standing inside Russell Kincaid’s pen, I said that name before I meant to.
“Ash.”
His nose moved against my cuff. He let his head hang a fraction lower, and the muscles along his neck stopped jumping.
I had never seen the adult bull in front of me. I had known the calf under all that size.
Somebody beyond the fence whispered something. I raised a hand without looking away from him.
“Ben. Shut the truck off.”
The engine stopped.
“Everybody down from the rails. Go behind the shop if you have to. Give him less to watch.”
This time they moved.
Dean stayed near the gate, his face drained. I asked him for a bucket of cake pellets. When he brought it, I made him pass it through and back away before I picked it up.
There was nothing quick about the next forty minutes. I took a few steps along a broad curve, waited, rattled the feed, and waited again. Ash followed when he was ready. If a boot scraped behind a panel, he stopped, and so did I.
We made our way toward the holding pen in little pieces. At the open gate, I moved aside and let him see clear ground ahead. He went through with his nose near the bucket.
I closed the gate behind him. Then I pushed the bolt fully into its receiver, secured the keeper, and leaned against the gate twice.
Only after it held did I discover that I couldn’t make my fingers close around the bucket handle.
Ben took it from me.
“You all right?” he asked.
“Give me a minute.”
He stood beside me without offering any more questions.
By noon, people at the coffee table were telling the story to people who had watched it happen. By early afternoon, Russell had supplied the version he wanted repeated.
The bull had tired himself out, he said. Livestock sometimes stopped a rush without following through. My presence had been a reckless coincidence, and I was fortunate not to have paid for it.
I was close enough to hear him. I should have kept walking, but he looked at me when he said fortunate.
“I raised him,” I told him. “He was a bottle calf on the place where I worked eleven years ago. I recognized the injury behind his ear.”
Russell let the visitors look at me before he replied.
“How many cattle do you suppose have an old fence injury?”
“I treated this one.”
“That’s quite a claim.” He turned his cup in its saucer. “Especially at this convenient moment.”
Dean had been standing behind him. Now he stepped close enough to be heard.
“She made sure a few of us heard about that latch beforehand, too. Funny how she was already thinking about it. Then she’s the one inside, making a show.”
He left the rest unsaid.
One visitor looked toward the gate. Another looked down into his coffee. Nobody asked Dean why he hadn’t checked the bolt.
At four, Russell called me into the office.
He remained standing behind his desk. The seasonal safety form I’d signed was open in front of him, one finger laid beside a paragraph.
“You entered an unauthorized area. I can’t allow that under our insurance. You’re suspended as of today.”
I looked at the form. My signature was there in blue ink, crowded onto the line because the pen had started skipping.
“Dean was told about the gate.”
“This concerns your conduct.”
“Is that what you’re putting in the report?”
He closed the folder.
I turned toward the door. His voice softened before I reached it.
“You have a child to support, Mara. I’d think carefully about the impression you leave.”
I drove home with both hands high on the steering wheel so I wouldn’t notice them shaking against my legs.
Tessa had gone to spend the afternoon with a school friend. I had the house to myself for an hour, and I used most of it standing beneath the hall closet shelf, trying to pull down a cardboard file box without tearing it.
My aunt used to say I kept papers the way other people kept good dishes. I had pay stubs from jobs I barely remembered, a stock-handling certificate, receipts for equipment I’d worn out years ago. Whenever I moved, the box came with me.
I carried it to the kitchen table and began emptying it.
The photograph was curled, and the corner caught beneath a folder when I lifted it. I eased it free.
There I was at twenty-three, sunburned across the nose, kneeling beside a gray calf. My slicker was torn at one elbow. White veterinary tape protected the area behind his left ear, and the Veylan patch showed on my shoulder.
I put the picture beneath the lamp.
The ranch had dispersed during the recession. Equipment, breeding animals, everything had been sold. I’d gone on to another job, then another, and lost track of the calf along with the rest of the place.
Under the photograph lay a manila envelope flattened by years of other papers. I hadn’t opened it in a decade. Inside were the cheap spiral notebooks we’d used for treatment records.
I found April by the mud smeared across the page edges.
The entries were in my own handwriting. A bull calf. Wire laceration behind the left ear. Twice-daily care, continued for twenty-one days.
Beside every entry, I had written the same identification number: VY628…
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